idk i said i'd quit blogging because i felt like i was exposed/i was being too absentminded/too emotional/etc whatever blog addict symptoms that came with it but tumblr just doesn't seem to do it with me.
with everything that's happened within the time span of 6 months, i feel like it's too much to keep on my mouth and inside my head. like i need to write it down before 1 year later i realise it's not as big as i thought it was. so i got a diary.
but diaries aren't the same as blogs you know?
one day you wake up and you realise life's not too bad after all and so you embrace the ... day? and actually laugh at things. like today. i embraced whatever happened today. and without thinking so... deeply about it... it was okay.
another day you realise how much of a stupid person you are for letting things (... a mixture of things) ruin you completely. idk boys, exams, family, faith, thoughts, selfish thoughts, thoughts... thoughts seriously ruin you until your left bare with yourself and then you loooooook at yourself and you just explode with self pity
and then there are other days
you know
other days
ok bye
